Patients

Patients is a virtue and I find that I'm losing it more and more. :/

Sometimes I look back and think about how much I've changed. I think, "Wow. Where is that person?... That was me?"

I'm not alone in that right?

Some way or another we all change. For good, for bad. On purpose and sometimes things just sneak up on us.

Patients is something I used to overflow with. (In most situations). But these days it's much harder to hold on to. And once easy situations are wearing me down.

Frustration. That I can hold on to real well. Haha. But I hate it. Frustration, especially the unnecessary kind is such a waist of energy. Being in a bad mood for no good reason is a really sad thing. You can't have peace, you can't enjoy the moment, and if prolonged you can't enjoy life it self. And other people certainly can't enjoy life with you.

There could be multiple factors contributing to my impatiens but that doesn't really matter.

I know deep inside the main solution is God. He is the provider of all good things. Peace, strength, love, joy, etc.. and patients. If I go to Him in times where I think my head's gonna EXPLODE and ask Him to change me, He will.


God is good! He loves you!

Check Check Check It Out

If you wanna... check out my story! and comment:

http://www.webook.com/project/Hope-Hills




and poems like this one:

One Voice

In life there are a million choices
In life there are a million voices

but only one can speak
and bring forth all existence

http://www.webook.com/project/Poems-and-other-things

Some basics

Last post I kinda went strait to the point and didn't get into the personal stuff.

Some Basics:

I'm a Christian, been one since I was 11 years old :).

I'm shy (not as much once I get to know you though) and pretty laid back. My mind races a lot more than my body probably ever will. hehe

I work full time caring for disabled people.

I live with my family. Mom, dad, little sis, and little bro.

I want to go to school for medical billing and coding. (For now anyways. My mind changes every third conversation I have with someone haha)

*I wish I was more decisive!

I was born in Africa but grew up in the States.

I consider my home town to be Portland, ME! LOVE

I love music, writing (scripts, stories, songs), photography, film, design (not really fashion I'm pretty lost when it comes to that), drawing and so on.

I have a bunch of dreams I want to see come true. Overall I just want to be used by God.

Yup there's more but lets take a break.

Finally

Right well I've been putting this off (as I do with way too many things) and now I'm finally doing it ha ha! Yes blogging. Wow! Hello world (or one follower I attain through the site. Please, even just one would be so nice)

Okay well anyway moving onward. I write. Not that well but I love it. I have journals upon journals filled with stuff I wrote over the years.

My goal: To go through those journals and slap 'em right up here.

So this may sound quite boring and I don't blame you if you think so. I don't know if it will really work out right but I at least want to give it a try.

This is really a selfish thing. Like so many out there I'm trying to figure out who I am and trying to express who I am. Especially who I am in Christ. So if you don't enjoy these posts, I'm not going to sulk over it. It's really more for me than anyone else. Although if you do enjoy then that would be a nice plus. So that's my agenda. :)